My Struggle with Being Present

I seem to struggle with a constant detachment from the present moment. I am always either thinking ahead or thinking back to a time from my past. 

I honestly can't remember the last time where I was truly present. Maybe when I was in China because everything was new to me, I don't know. Was I truly present or just experiencing something new which caused me to pay more attention? 

Everything I do is usually, in some way, in hopes of a better future or to fill a void from some type of trauma in my past. I always have goals and I am always trying to achieve those goals which are usually set months or years in the future.

I don't know why I am like this but I am hoping someone out there can relate, and if you do, just know you are not alone. 

We are in this numb, blurry, future seeking dimension together.